Totally Upset

Haiz, i thought i can get what i want since last time.
But my mom say after i form 5, so that means i can get after i finish my secondary school??
WHAT!! I totally upset FINALLY!!! I wanting this thing since i form 1 and U say after form 5!!!
Btw, i am form 5 now! But i cant wait until end of the year!! I was wait until now!!
The pain still can't go off!! NEVER UNDERSTAND!! WHAT I WANT!!
TRUELY UPSET FINALLY THAT I NEVER I CANT TAKE IT!!

MY FEELINGS!!
WHAT IS THE PROBLEM, IF I HAVE THAT NOW AND LATER!
THAT THING WONT INFLUENCE MY STUDY

Haiz!!!! I HATE IT!!!!

I WANT TO SHOUT!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!